I’m confused.

You said that you miss me, but…I don’t know.

You have a girlfriend now, so shouldn’t it be the case that you don’t miss me?  That you don’t like me in that way anymore?

…I don’t know.

I’m just confused.

I want to know what’s on your mind.

What do you think about us—and the highly uncertain future of us being together?

I don’t want to get my hopes up anymore than I still have them if we really can’t be together.

But still…

Even after all that I’ve been through in the past few months,

experiencing so much of Japan, learning new things, and making new friends,

somehow,

you always come back to my mind.

And I always have to wonder about the next time that we’ll see each other again.

What will it be like?

Will you still have your girlfriend?

If so, will we even be able to hang out together?

If not, then what?

…I don’t know.

In the midst of everything that’s going on,

my heart is in turmoil.